Just really needed to vent off some steam since really cant completely blow off to relatives dad still has to live with them and all friends are not in farming so no one really gets it. Sad to say people who I have never met and probably never will, have more in common with me and understand me how I am feeling better than people close to me.

As to the rest of my life No reason to stay here I do not have a girlfriend, wife or kids, only 26, and will not be farming, I can do that anywhere do not have to do it here. So I am going to do a custom wheat harvest job this summer and hopefully find a nice farm to work at far from home. If cant farm myself might as well help someone else who is farming.

Again thanks for listening