| JRthefarmer - 1/19/2025 17:45
I know sometimes life hands you lemons. Wrestling dad here and it's wrestling season, so sorry for the analogy. You sound like the kid who is really a pretty good wrestler. Has all the tools it seems he should have to be great. But the problem is your heart/attitude. You get on the mat and get beat by kids who maybe aren't as "talented" as you are. It's not necessarily because of lack of effort, but because of heart/attitude. They thought they should beat that kid because that kid didn't have a very good record, hasn't been wrestling long etc. Their attitude seems to look for excuses to blame because they "should've" won. It was the ref. The other kid cheated. I wasn't feeling well.
Anyway, sorry for the cheesy analogy, but in your post seem like you are the kid that thinks he should win and never lose. If you don't have a loss here and there and use it to get better, you will never win.
Successful does not mean only money to people who really know what success is. Have goals and do what it takes to meet them. If you fail, find another path. Don't get on the "poor me" wagon too long. Most people in life don't have a straight path as far as "success" is concerned. Life throws them many curves. Sometimes they need to go back to the starting line. Sometimes they need to turn around. Sometimes they need to take a detour.
It sounds like a building getting too expensive is your excuse for your dream. In the meantime, you haven't done anything to move forward for several years. Your dream will not happen as you pictured at this point without a detour. You don't have the money to do it like you want, so move on with the detour. You can get there, but it's not just going to happen when you have it in reverse. Put the car in drive and do the next logical thing to move forward. You need money---find a place to rent to put machines in to get some production going, get a job and save up for a couple years, but keep your expenses low as you obviously can live pretty cheap, find someone to make most your parts for your "ideas" for now and get them to market, sell everything, get your feet under you and start the race over with a renewed perspective on life. You obviously have some other trouble with your kids which leads me to believe you aren't a gem to deal with. Get your life in order. If you don't know God, start there to find purpose and understanding on what life on earth really is and means.
Yeah, I feel that. Hits to my core really. I have been an athlete my whole life. I'm scared to say "gifted" in this group, but college, tailback, fasted on team. I will admit and regret that many times I didn't give my best while knowing others did but they could not beat me. I think that mentality has met reality. I knew how to pinch the extra yards I needed, but reality is in dollars.
Sorry, I strongly disagree with any notion I was not a good parent. "I" was the only one standing between a troubled youth and the law. I knew it was either me or the law, and the law's only goal is prison. I won't go into it but it both boils my blood and brings tears to realize no one can understand the balance I faced. Until you have a special needs kid, you don't get it. |
Personal...."go fund me"...I need to fix my path.
