I do thank her and grateful for what time she was in my life.

The other Sunday sermon was things we have to be Thankful for no matter how difficult life is. We have to be thankful for Gods loving grace and mercy and protection.  Thankful for our family and friends and people who have helped us. She got on my mind during that sermon, she had lost a parent and I heard she wasn’t doing good (seems something told me to go see her after church which I did but no one come to the door) to check on her , see how she was doing / if I could do anything for her and tell her how thankful I was for her help and being a friend (when we first met) when I was loaded down with a heavy load of older parents / business problems. I am soo grateful/ thankful for her help during situation when a deceiving con artist would have beat/ stole from my family and me a substantial amount of money in a financial transaction by deceiving my parents good heartedness with plans to take advantage of parents. She provided help/ information/ advice which give me insight that really help me to know what corrective measures I needed to do to protect and save parents and me from that lose, yet I don’t think she really knows it. I have tried to contact her to thank her and give her a something in appreciation before that Sunday but as I stated earlier she will not communicate 

 There is a phrase/ quote that has stuck in my mind. I have recited that  phrase to myself and others and at the same time she is on my mind , in my thoughts, hope and prayers.

God determines who walks into your life.....it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go

I am grateful GOD put her in my life and I would have liked for her to stay although its is difficult to determine which is the next best step.

However, You know what just gets me and I cant understand why I keep feeling this way